Last night in the middle of the night after I got the baby back to sleep I once again could not sleep.  I was thinking about how I can take the current situation with all my sour lemons and make lemonade.

Then this morning when I got on facebook I went to my flare section at the urging of a friend who wanted me to see what he sent to me.  So then I went to pieces of flare and found this piece sent by another friend:

“When life hands you lemons, make grape juice, then sit back and then watch the world wonder how you did it”

So that is kind of what I want to be able to do.  I want to make be able to make grape juice or lemonade out of what is given to me.

Right now things are so hard.  I am so stressed.  I can’t imagine it does not affect the people around me.  I know it affects me and those around me.

Today I was told by my youngest son I am evil.  Just what you want to hear from a 9 year old boy right?!  There were reasons and they all killed me.  It is all things that I know are being said by his dad and his dad’s new leech.  It just kills me and I have always sat back and just let it all be.

This time though I did not.  I actually told him that I told him I had to pay for all of his essential things and because of that and only getting $25 a week from his dad to help pay for the essentials we could not afford all the fun things that he gets to do with his dad and leech.  There was more but that was the of what I said.

My son is being emotionally manipulated and there isn’t anything I can do but trust in the Lord that He will protect my baby from all that is going on.

It is hard to do.  Each person is given free will.  Each person is allowed to make decisions and choose.  The Lord allows evil to be on the earth.  So all I can do it attempt to trust.  It is hard to do for me.

So how do I make the negatives into positives?  That is my goal and question!?!