I have often wondered about my sanity.  Well not in the way that probably relates to most.  I mean I guess it is more like why do I do what I do type of sanity.

Today for example I have the STBX’s leeches youngest daughter here for my youngest boy.  He enjoys her company, they are friends, he wanted her to spend the night to be with the dogs prior to school starting and so – here she is.

I know I didn’t have to do it.  I know with the circumstances I could have so no.  Yet I didn’t.  I said it is fine.

It isn’t the kids fault those two are together.  It isn’ the kids fault I was friends with the leech prior to the divorce.  It isn’t the kids fault that this stuff is going on.

This isn’t the best week to have all this going on.  I have had stuff going on every day this week.

Court was Monday.  “What happened at court?” you ask.  Well lets say I am not al to happy but this is where it stands; I gave up the rent owed, I gave up him accounting for the retirement funds he spent and getting any of it, and in turn I get a guarantee of 18.5k when the house sells.  If the house does not sell in a year he has to apply for at least 3 loans to remortgage so I get my money then and I am not waiting forever.  Other than that nothing was decided.

Bed delivery was Tuesday.  We all got new mattresses.  Oh how I love our new mattress; I just wish my baby monkey would sleep long enough for me to really enjoy it!  LOL

Start of custody evaluation was on Wednesday.  That was the most stressful thing.  Having to sit there and explain the control and abuse in front of him.  I have no words to explain it in the first place.  I didn’t do a good job and really only seemed to stress more than anything else.  I am now being accused of the one who was abusive.  I apparently threw a flower pot at his head and put a hole in the wall.  Plus since whenever there was a fight, he was the one who called the police on me – I am being looked at now.

Kyle’s first football game was also on Wednesday.  Of course the STBX showed up to “support” Kyle in his game.  He didn’t support him when we were married – why now?  Oh I know because he thinks it looks good to those who are doing the evaluation!  He didn’t even watch him play.  He was on his phone or talking with my youngest boy the whole time.  Kyle did great though!  Jammed his finger but did good.  Has some things to work on but it was only the 1st game.

Becca came over today and since today is Thursday.

My baby boy has two appointments tomorrow.

This week has been full and I didn’t even touch on everything.  Like the whole school issue not being addressed and figured out yet.

It has been a very stressful week.  I look horrible.  I am not really sleeping.  I just want answers.

The good news though is that in 3 months this evaluation will be done and then about a month after that the divorce will be final!  So hopefully if everything does go without any issues we are looking at about 4 more months of this misery!!!!