Yesterday I don’t even know if I blogged. I don’t think I did but I might have. Yesterday was a huge blur.

We had court yesterday I had worked myself up because I was going to be on the stand. Oh I was thinking I would be done and over with yesterday. Instead I barely got started.

The will be ex was on the stand for an hour and a half. Then they added another witness. Which I knew who the person was – or I was assuming who the person was and I was correct in my assumption. I also had an idea as to what the person would testify to if I was correct in my assumption. Then after I found out I was correct and listening to his testimony – I was once again correct. “Greatest dad. He watches my child. Would never leave my son with someone I didn’t trust.” and the crap went on.

Sadly the things the will be ex said on the stand were priceless. You can’t put a price on arrogance. I wish you could because man that would be nice but you just can’t.

Then while I was on the stand he is snickering/chuckling/laughing. It was not loud but I could hear it. Talk about a slap in the face. It was one of those things that he is trying to manipulate the situation. Like you are totally nuts and crazy and insane and wrong and he can’t believe you are even saying anything like this. Each smug arse grin and little snicker was a punch in my gut. I know it should not have been but he accomplished what he was trying to do. He made me lose what I was saying. He made me forget words. He made me disheartened. He was distracting enough that I didn’t say all I really should have said.

I would really love to go into all of it but I am going to refrain this time.

So I talked about the whole mortgage thing. I am only 30 points away from qualifying for a mortgage on my own. Well I will qualify on my own but I needed to get my debt down to 50 to 60% for all the credit I am paying on. Today after speaking with the lady at the bank jack in the box and I decided we were going to take our CD out (which is for our Disney trip) and take about $2000 of it and get my cards down.

Everything is down to 50% except for one card. That card is down to about 60.2%. By the time I make the next payment it will be down below 60%. So now at the end of December or beginning of January I am going to do a 3 credit report/3 credit score report and see where my scores are at. If they have gone up to where they need to be then I am going get back in touch with that lady and have her pull my credit report again. If they have not gone up enough then I am going to pull another report a month or so later to see where I am at. She said once everything is at or below the 50 to 60% that the score usually raises up in 60 to 90 days. Yet she did say that she has had people whose score has only gone up 5 points and she has had others who have gone up 150 points. So now it is a waiting game.

The sad thing is – If this does not work I will have spent a good portion of our Disney fund for nothing. If we don’t get a lot back next year on taxes and we did all this for nothing and we don’t have a fund for Disney I will have promised and broken that promise to a son.

Please God let this will I want be the same as Your will for me.