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God Does Provide

June 28, 2011 at 6:47 PM · Filed under Uncategorized and tagged: Budget, Depression, Financial, God, Jack in the Box, Overwhelmed, Providing, Relationships

I have been struggling with a lot.

I am doing better with my depression because of the medication but there are still days that are very overwhelming. On those days it seems that I always choose to do the things I shouldn’t – like deal with the budget.

Today I sat down to work on the budget since bills will need to be paid on Friday the 1st. I find we are short around $382.00 this month (and at this rate about that from each month that will come after July).

I was feeling very overwhelmed with how we are going to make it. Where it is all going to come from. What in the world we are really going to do.

Then my Middle Monkey comes in with the mail. I have mail from the mortgage bank and I am thinking it is going to be a check for the protection program we were a part of. Filed a claim in May because of the two hospital stays this year and I should have been getting a check in the next couple of days. Instead of seeing a check though it is two denial letters for each claim.

My heart sank and I just started to cry.

Then I decided to call the company. When I agreed not to cancel this program I was told with the information they requested if I was being honest with them I would be approved. So I agreed to keep the program going for the next two months and also to have to pay for my medical documents. I faxed everything in and waited. Now I was calling. The man who answered the phone said he was sorry but he could not reverse the decision that was made. I said I just need to know what other information is needed in order to have the denials reviewed (I wasn’t the nicest person on the phone to be honest. It wasn’t really that I was mean I was just very emotional and upset and probably not the easiest to understand or deal with). He finally put me on hold and came back and told me he reviewed the documentation I sent in and was resending it to be reviewed again because I did send in all information that was asked for. He then told me that I would need to call back Thursday or Friday for the final determination. So I was feeling better that it was at least going to be reviewed again. Not even 5 minutes later I got a phone call from them telling me the February case had been approved but there was no way they could approve the one for May. I then went to my car and had her review the information with me to show her exactly where the information was. Then we got disconnected.

Actually my phone froze up and I had to reboot it after taking the battery out. After that the last five numbers were gone. I was very disappointed because I had no way to call her back and there was no voicemail. So I had to just hope and pray she called me back. After about 30 minutes she called me back and told me she went to her supervisor and after explaining to her the situation with my medical condition I was approved for my other claim.

So both of my claims were approved without me sending in any additional information having to be sent in!

God knew we really needed help this month. I know He won’t pull checks out of the air each month and I am in the process of reducing our costs/budget at this point in time. This month though He provided what we needed in order to survive.

So the “extra” money we will be saving this month from not having to pay the full mortgage I am going to take the extra and set it aside for next month. It won’t totally cover what we are short next month but Jack in the Box gets an extra check this month so I will be putting that one away as well. That way we will have enough to cover what we are short next month with the two things together.

So July and August are going to be taken care of at least. From that point on we will figure out what to do. Actually I will be working on figuring out what we are doing from now until then.

All I can say is God does provide.

I have been talking to Him a lot more lately. I have been talking to Him about a lot of things. Things I don’t understand. Things I am unsure of. Things I am worried about. Things I am happy about. Things I am sad about. I have just been reconnecting to Him and it has felt wonderful.

He does hear you. He might not answer in the ways we want but He does hear you. He does provide what you need when you need it.

Things are still not 100% because we still do have financial issues but I know He is with me while I am going through them.

Thankfully He is all I need.

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Beth Zimmerman wrote @ June 28, 2011 at 8:49 PM

One day at a time, girlie! He provides what we need … usually EXACTLY when we need it. (And not a moment earlier.) Our responsibility is to not misappropriate it even though there are a lot of things we would like to have!

And hubby said something tonight about helping our daughter (who really should be independent) pay for car insurance. I burst into tears and asked, “With What?”

Not an easy place to be!

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ July 4, 2011 at 6:48 PM

Beth you are so right! He does provide what we need EXACTLY when we need it.

I wish we were all able to help our children and ourselves with “spare” change.

Love you!

samurai wrote @ June 29, 2011 at 8:30 AM

What an awesome testimony. Both the provision and the increased prayer time with the One who owns cattle on a thousand hills.

Still praying for you.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ July 4, 2011 at 6:48 PM

And He moves us in ways that are unbelievable when we need it most.

Thanks Samurai!

Eric wrote @ August 4, 2011 at 4:58 PM

I must be doing something wrong then. I’ve been praying, applying for jobs. Right now my wife and I are month behind on the electric and soon to be behind on the phone bill. I need phone service in to get interviews. I keep saying everything is going to work out, but now that bills are getting farther behind its hard to see where that provision is.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ August 4, 2011 at 5:46 PM

Eric you are not alone. My husband has a job but each time a new manager comes in we end up with new rules and problems. Yes it is a paycheck but right now it isn’t enough for use to be able to do what we need to. We make it day by day. Most days I wonder where money is going to come from.

God answers prayers in His time – not in our time. It doesn’t make it any easier but there is a reason for everything. It does not mean you have done something wrong because this lesson you are dealing with may be a lesson for someone else in your life who is watching what you are going through.

How long have you been off from work? Are you eligible for help from the state you live in? I know this isn’t going to help but what about food pantries? What type of job are you looking for and are you willing to move or could you move?

It isn’t easy right now; not even for some who have jobs.

I am going to add you to my prayer list and pray for God to have His will be done in your life!

God Bless,
Yeve

Eric wrote @ August 4, 2011 at 6:56 PM

Yeve, thanks for adding me to your prayer list. I’ve been doing temporary work while trying to find something permanent. I haven’t had anything permanent since October of 2009.

There were a few temp jobs that were 3 months in 2010, but most of the temp work i get though is a day here then in 3 weeks another day of work and then nothing.

I don’t qualify for unemployment. My wife and I don’t qualify for food stamps she makes $10 to much. I have used for pantries before, but I sometimes feel ashamed to use them, because i know there are people worse off than i am.

Moving is not and option right now, rent payments would be higher that what we are paying right now, and a lot of things need to be fixed up on this house, Wife inherited from her mother and inherited house payments as well.

How many times does managers change at your husbands job?

it’s good to hear there are others that are having the similar issues that are not easily solved. Most of what i see on the internet when looking up Gods provision is an issue that gets resolved quickly.

Thank you for responding, and I will keep you in my prayers as well.

Eric

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ August 4, 2011 at 10:34 PM

My husband hasn’t been at the job a year (almost a year – beginning of September) and he has gone through 4 managers at this point. Plus they are just about to get a new one here in the next week or so. Everyone who comes in changes the rules and we go right back to having very little money for bills and food.

I will definitely pray for you and your wife!

Maybe what you can do in regards to a phone is purchase a prepaid cell phone and just keep that for job calls?! Maybe that would be an option…

Eric wrote @ August 12, 2011 at 8:15 PM

I will be starting a Job on Tuesday or Wednesday not in my field but it will have to do for now. My car is still broke needs tie rod ends and a tire. I was able to borrow the money from someone to fix those problems, which leaves me with a question, When borrowing are you still relying on God to meet your needs, or is this relying on someone else?

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ August 12, 2011 at 8:24 PM

For starters congratulations on the job! Your field or not it is a job. That way also getting another job could be easier in your field since you are working again. We have heard and seen that those out of work for three months or more have a harder time getting a job in their field but once working it is easier.

I do think if you are able to borrow from someone to help you it is still relying on God! He has placed that person in your life which has allowed you to be able to place pride and humility aside, all while trusting in Him, and asking for help and being given help! Shows me a very strong and faithful believer.

Eric wrote @ August 17, 2011 at 7:08 PM

Ok. now hears were the confusion starts. I feel like Gods teasing me now. Anyway I’m currently working a full time job that’s not in my field. I get a phone message today from a previous employer sounding like they are hiring again, This job is very close to my field.

The reason I left was that the job was only part time it paid 2 dollars more than I’m getting now, but didn’t pay the bills. I am at a loss on what to do, the hours will conflict if i do both.

I don’t understand God’s reason on this maybe some of you do. It’s like well you can have a job in your field, but its not going to be full time or some other type of catch.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ August 17, 2011 at 8:12 PM

God gives us freewill. We are allowed to make choices. Which means that when someone calls and offers you another position that won’t pay your bills you have a choice to make. You can call the company and say, “I need a full time position and I have that currently so if you are unable to provide a full time position for me I am unable to take the job.” or you can call them and say, “Yes I will take it.”

You have a job right now that is paying the bills and providing. God isn’t teasing you right now. He might be testing you and I do believe He does that.

But if He is testing you the question is are you really listening to what His answer is to you? If you don’t feel you are getting an answer – I would say no answer is an answer.

I can’t tell you what to do but I can tell you what I would say to my husband, “I know how much you dislike your current job. At the same time though honey we have a family and bills and God has provided you with a job that helps cover those. We can’t afford to go backwards because your unhappy. I wish we could but unless that company can offer you a better wage to cover what we will be missing from your current job or offer you a full time position we just can’t afford for you to do it. I am sorry and I love you and I don’t like watching you be miserable. But we can’t afford to go backwards.”

Of course prayer is all I do oh so often. It is the only way to truly hear Him because when you are still and silent and only listening to Him – you get to know His voice and His discernment. And then and only then do you really start to make the choices in your life that leads you to doing His will.

Eric wrote @ August 23, 2011 at 11:14 PM

all I can say is WOW! and that is a good wow. Right now. as I said in my previous post I am currently working a full time job not in my field. Anyway this week.

I’ve been getting calls from places to discuss employment opportunities in my field, I will have had 3 interviews come wed.

I had a call today that i have to return tomorrow to set up another one. I don’t want to mess up(which tends to be my habit), and choose wisely if offers do come through. All jobs are full time. Thanks for prayers.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ August 23, 2011 at 11:27 PM

I am really happy for you. I poesy that you weigh all options and pick the one you feel He is leading you toward. Start to pay now for wisdom.

Eric wrote @ September 11, 2011 at 12:04 AM

well no offers from the interviews. my wife and I keep falling farther and farther behind on bills, now we are behind on the house payment, electric payment, and phone, we are both working but we keep falling further and further behind. I’m starting to feel my prayers are not effective or being ignored. You only can borrow so much from people, God has to step in somewhere soon.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ September 12, 2011 at 12:21 PM

Eric I understand the frustration. As Christians it is hard to keep falling further and further behind and not seeing the light. I understand this all too well. Have you ever heard the song “Unanswered Prayers”? That is what this reminds me of. I truly believe God’s answers every one of our prayers but it isn’t always as we would like and it isn’t always when we would like.

If God had answered my prayers years ago about making my marriage a Biblical marriage and my husband loving me and wanting me – I wouldn’t have my two youngest Monkey’s. I would not have a daughter and I would not have this incredible four month old son who lights up the room even on his bad days!

We all struggle. My husband might not have a job here soon because they are getting rid of all their old sales people at this place if sales don’t improve. Kind of hard to improve sales when no one walks in the door.

Maybe and I know you don’t want to hear this but maybe you are not intended to stay in the home you are in. Maybe you need to consider moving and just selling the place you are living in.

I have no clue what God’s plans are for you. You and your wife need to be praying and you need to just “Be Still and know He is God.”

I continue to pray for your situation. Maybe you should look through my blog some more. You will see that life isn’t all peachy for us. It is hard to know that He is in control and not just knowing it but letting it be. It is very hard.

I have to remind myself that just because I want something and work hard to keep it or get it – doesn’t mean it was meant to be.

Know I continue to pray!
Yeve

Eric wrote @ September 18, 2011 at 9:01 AM

we have thought about selling but we would not make much from the sale the bank would take most of it.There is also a lot of work that needs to be done to the house. What we are paying for the house payment is lower than what apartment rent would be.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ September 19, 2011 at 1:08 PM

Eric – I completely understand the frustration and not getting it.

I also understand that rent will probably cost more than a house payment. That is why we worked so hard to get ourselves into a house instead of a rental.

I am still praying for you and for His will to become clear to you and your wife!

Eric wrote @ September 28, 2011 at 11:40 PM

I’m beginning to thinks Gods will for me is to work a job paying minimum wage for the rest of my life.

Every Job that I enjoyed seems to get taken away from me. Reduction in hours at one, loss of contracts at another. I have had 7 interviews and all I get is rejection letters. Why would
God have me waste time on these
interviews?

Yes I am working now as a cashier. My request seems simple a job in my field that is full time and that will last more than a few years. My wife and I are far behind in bills. My wife’s car needs to be fixed.

My car also needs to be fixed it drives ok when its dry out, but when it rains, a lot of steering correction need to be done to keep it from hitting other cars, I need to get it fix before winter gets here, but that not looking likely. No car, No more Job to pay bills.

I’m getting closer and closer to losing my faith ever day. I’m at a loss. It stills seems like my prayers are not getting through to God, Or I done something wrong to tick him off. It’s hard when you make $10 to much to qualify for food assistance, and also deciding on paying a bill and or try to buy a few groceries. My internet connection keeps dropping here. So I’m not sure if this is a sign to post this or not post this. I am at a loss. I’m sorry its seems like i’m complaining to much

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ September 29, 2011 at 10:57 AM

Eric,

When everything in life seems so overwhelming it is hard to feel as if we are doing anything other than complaining!

I know 1st hand what you feel like in regards to not feeling as if your prayers are being answered.

But I have come to believe that just because they are not answered in the way I would like it does not mean they are not being answered. And just because there isn’t a solution right when I want it doesn’t mean He doesn’t hear me.

I went through a horrible divorce. It drug me through the mud. He was accusing me of a lot. It took well over 4 years and lots of legal bills. My lawyer has graciously reduced my bill from being in the 100k’s down to the upper 60k’s.

I prayed and prayed and prayed for the divorce to just be over with. So many times I lost count. I was giving my Ex anything he wanted just so the divorce would be over and each time he would turn around and want even more than what he had just asked for.

It was all over our son. And finally after a long time we were put into a custody evaluation. He lost legal and physical custody of our son, he lost almost all the time he had with him other than a typical every other weekend, one day a week (plus holiday’s), and he lost in court.

Now because of all of this I have been able to make decisions without him. I don’t have to rely upon him to say yes to things like braces.

My son really needed braces. Was getting cavities in-between his teeth because his teeth were so screwed up and no one could get floss in-between the teeth. My Ex argued with me when I told him what his 1/2 of the treatment would be. Sat there saying he would not pay because it is cosmetic in his eyes and he doesn’t need it and he would not pay for it. Even though he has no say in his treatment at this point he was still arguing over it.

God did answer my prayer – the divorce was over in 2010 but it was no where near the time when I wanted it to be over with. This right here is why.

I know it feels as if He isn’t hearing you but He is.

We all have trials and tests to go through. We all have troubles and we all have times when we don’t feel like He is with us.

It isn’t true though. I am still praying for you. I will continue to pray for you; even if you don’t come back here.

I am praying for you to feel His presence. I am praying for you to feel as if He is hearing you and there with you and your wife. I am praying that you do not lose your faith.

Yeve

Eric wrote @ September 29, 2011 at 7:10 AM

I am unable to delete my last post, on the 28th please delete if possible

Eric wrote @ October 6, 2011 at 1:25 PM

Thanks for praying for us to feel his presence. Well my Wife made it in to work but she is out of gas. I decided to use money on some groceries last night. Know I have to figure out how to pick her up to get gas in her car and mine with out bouncing anything in my checking account. We need our cars to be able to make it to Wednesday, then we have to find a way to pay to fix her car, before it stalls and someone rams in to her car.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ October 10, 2011 at 9:22 PM

Eric I continue to pray for you and your wife.

You might not know it but I understand your struggles. My husband lost his job. He is supposed to get unemployment. We still don’t have a check. Paid what bills we could on the 3rd of the month. And now we have nothing. We didn’t go to church on Sunday because there are three appointments this week that 60 miles worth of gas has to get us to. There is nothing in the bank.

But yet I just keep on praying and praise and thanking God for what we have. I call out in anger because nothing is going the way I want it to but again who is to say it is not going how He wants it to.

I do not know what to say other than I am praying. You are on my prayer list and you will continue to be.

Eric wrote @ October 6, 2011 at 1:29 PM

I have a hard time seeing how that is providing since gas for a car is a need and my wife even put 5 in yesterday

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ October 10, 2011 at 9:23 PM

I am sorry you are struggling so badly.

Still praying.

Eric wrote @ October 22, 2011 at 5:10 PM

I’ve been getting frustrated lately. My Grandpa fell ended up in a coma. Prayed for healing, but he died. Though my wife going to have a baby, but she was just a week late. We were hoping for a baby. I’ve been trying to find a job that I enjoy but that hasn’t happen yet. at least one i know is a simple request. It feels like God has abounded me. Not to mention new health problems that i have. How long do I pray before I stop on one request 10,20 30 years?

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ October 24, 2011 at 9:02 AM

Eric,

I am hoping you don’t take offense to what I am about to write and if you do I am sorry.

God does provide. He provides and He answers. It may not be when we want the answers to be there and it may not be the answer we want but He does provide and He does answer our prayers.

If God answered everyone the way they thought their prayers should be answered we would have a completely chaotic world; even more than it is.

God calls each of us home when it is time. There is no rhyme or reason for us here on earth. One of my husbands best friends was killed a couple weeks ago. He was an on duty police officer who gave his life to protect others. His wife just found out that morning her cancer was back. Does that sound fair and just? I didn’t think so but then I thought about it and realized God gave her a gift! He allowed her to find out about her cancer and He allowed her to speak to her husband one more time.

God does not abandon anyone it is us who walk away. If you are not feeling close to God open His word and read. God never leaves us – we leave Him!

I am trying to understand the whole baby thing here. You say you are trying to find a decent job and can’t. You say you can’t pay your bills and get the cars fixed and yet you are praying for a baby? I don’t understand that. I just don’t. I understand wanting a baby. I love my children and I wouldn’t want anything different but they cost so much. With everything going on in our lives do I wish they had come at different times; at times but HE knows best.

I don’t know why you can’t have children but look at some of the woman in the Bible. They could not get pregnant either and they prayed and begged and finally did (Abraham and Sarah is who comes to mind).

I am still praying for you and your wife and I hope you do open that Bible up and read. I hope you start to feel closer to Him. I hope you realize that God does answer prayers but He asnwers them His way – not our way.

If you read – maybe you can get the book, “The Shack”. It isn’t theologically correct and it wasn’t meant to be. But it does show how I believe God wants us to have a relationship with Him.

Eric wrote @ October 25, 2011 at 9:03 PM

Sorry to hear about you husbands friend. I’ve been a Christian since I was about 12. So a lot of people have more things happen before they turned to Christ.

Around the year 2000, I was 10 years younger than I am now, my brother ended up getting schizo affective disorder. I ended up getting asthma 2 years later never had it in my life. I’m still trying to pay that off, but I have health insurance now so that’s a plus. Especially since I was diagnosed with Pluarcy last week.

Well I’m 36, depending on how you look at it I”m either young or old but now too old yet.

There is only a certain number of years before your body will stop bear children am I correct? I would like to have children before my mother passes, and before I’m to old to keep up with them. My mother side of the family keeps seeming to die early. As my other brother said this is the last vault he is making for my family.

Thanks for you Prayers and keep praying.

Eric wrote @ October 25, 2011 at 9:07 PM

I know there are others worse off. a few years ago I went with a group of people to feed, the homeless under lower wacker drive in Chicago.

Eric wrote @ October 26, 2011 at 7:57 PM

I keep praying, and even changing the prayers to be more specific with my prayer requests.

I have prayed for my bother for over 10 years for some healing. Then when applying to jobs and where a choice between two jobs come up, You need to have an answer pretty quick, the employers are not going to wait that long for an answer.

Then figure out how to pay my bills, if I end up getting paid enough to cover 1 bill, do I pay it off, and rely on God for the rest?

That sounds more like I’m testing God. I just need to know that my prayers are being answered it doesn’t really matter how their answered, and that I am able to feel the effects or at least know what the answer is. It’s not like I’m asking for a close parking somewhere or a new car.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ October 31, 2011 at 2:27 PM

Do you like to read? Maybe you could get the book, The Christian Atheist by Craig Groeshcel.

Also “P.U.S.H.” – Pray Until Something Happens

We don’t always know what the answer is. Sometimes when the answer is No we don’t see it because we don’t want to see it.

Sometimes when it is not right now but later we still don’t see it. Because we want it when we want it.

Sometimes when it is yes we still miss it because it isn’t answered the way we think the yes should be answered.

I have had to learn that if I am praying and expecting an answer in one way and not in any other way – I miss the blessing He has bestowed upon me.

If He would have answered my prayer for the divorce to be over when I wanted it – the Ex would still have joint legal custody and I would have to fight with him over anything and everything my son needs to have done. But He knew what was best and so we had to wait.

God answers all our prayers but sometimes we just have to open ourselves up to what the answers to the prayers might be. It might not be what we what but it is always going to be what it needs to be.

Eric wrote @ November 9, 2011 at 7:16 PM

I keep hoping and praying things will get better around here. Now I may be getting fired or written up for trusting a co-worker. A co-worker buying an item told me that it was 50% off. The item did not ring up at 50% off, so trusting the co-worker I modified the price to 50% off. At the end of the transaction She said don’t tell anyone about this. I did tell management last night and spoke with the store manager about this. The store manger said he is going to speak with her about his and leave my name out of it. My concern is if she tells the manager that she was kidding about the 50% off, then I would be the one at fault. I at a loss

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ November 13, 2011 at 3:29 PM

I am praying for you Eric.

eric wrote @ November 29, 2011 at 11:30 PM

Well, nothing happen with the discount situation so that’s a relief. Anyway its getting closer to snowing here and the alignment on my car is still not fixed, no money to afford it, but i need it fixed to get to work, I guess I’ll see how hard it is to drive when the first snow hits here on December 2.

I also feel like I am being punished by God for questioning him on a few things. Recently I’ve been having very bad back pain, x-rays came out fine, doctors say it may be a sprain back muscle. I’m in therapy for it right night and on pain medicine, still trying to get used to working while on the meds.

I got a note from the insurance company yesterday saying the treatment may not be covered now. All i can do is wait and see on that one.

I’m tired of struggling, my wife is tired of struggling. Will this storm ever end?

There is a verse and i am unable to find it now. it says something have i lost favor in the lord, I will remember the past when times were good. That seems to be what is going on.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ November 30, 2011 at 8:39 PM

Eric I encourage you to just keep on believing in God. We were not put on this earth to be happy but in the end if we follow Him we will be blessed in a way that far exceeds our happiness. I understand things are rough. They are rough here as well. Today our furnace went out. Money to get something fixed we didn’t have.

Know I am praying. I still think you should go to the library and invest in reading the book The Christian Atheist.

eric wrote @ November 30, 2011 at 8:01 AM

Will this ever stop, my car is now broke and will not start. I keep praying and praying things just keep getting worse.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ November 30, 2011 at 8:41 PM

Is it possible that there is someone who fixes cars out of their garage who would help you out? That is what we do – we have a guy who lets us make payments and that is how we keep our vehicles going! The hard thing is calling and finding someone but if you are determined – they are out there!

Still praying!

Maybe you need to read the book of Job in the Bible! He lost everything. He was mad at God. He yelled at God. He cursed Him out. And yet through it all God understood because Job was honest about how he felt with God and Job never lost sight of the fact that God was ultimately in control and He still praised Him!

eric wrote @ November 30, 2011 at 10:37 PM

Well I was able to make it to work late with my car. I’m thinking it has to be the battery. Battery wouldn’t be too hard to replace, its just trying to find a way to manage money to pay for it. I had leave work early today because of bad back pain, very hard to walk and drive. My wife had to leave her work and pick me up to from work to go to the doctor. The doctor is scheduling and MRI to be done, and has me off of work for 7 days, which is not a good thing. I thought about not giving work the note and trying to work through like i did a about a month ago, but that would seem to do more damage to my body than good. I hope that they can find out what is wrong and heal it by the MRI. If the find nothing then i’m at a loss where out this pain is coming from.

The situations that are happening are really putting a toll on my wife and I marriage.

Thanks for the prayers. I know Job did. but i fell wrong when i question God or get angry with him is that normal?

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ December 4, 2011 at 3:18 PM

Eric I think we all question or get angry with God. The difference is I think He understands and honors us and accepts our anger and questions when we are honest with Him about our feelings. When we lie about what we are feeling that is when He is upset with us. I do think it is normal.

Hoping the MRI finds some answers for you.

eric wrote @ December 1, 2011 at 5:17 PM

Well a MRI is scheduled for Dec 5th, I’m scared and really hope its not bone cancer. the doctor said it could possibly be Psoriatic Arthritis. My wife and I need something good to happen soon. It just seems like a very rough start to the first year of being married.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ December 4, 2011 at 3:25 PM

There is nothing in this world that promises things are going to be good or easy. If you think that your marriage is going to get better because things go well or are easy then you might be disappointed.

We are promised that if we sacrifice and follow God’s will here on earth that one day we will have the ultimate blessing and that is being with Him eternally.

Life has been rough for me for as long as I can remember. Each day though I wake up and give thanks to Him for the blessings we currently have. 1. I am a live and breathing. 2. I have a roof over my head. 3. My husband has a job (even if it wasn’t always the best). 4. We have an amazing church family. 5. He has blessed me with family who loves and support me.

It isn’t always easy having things to give thanks for. The furnace goes out. The car’s breaks are not working. The house needs new windows. The bills have to be paid. We are supposed to tithe but if we do we don’t have enough for the bills. We have no insurance and my husband can’t hear. The whole family is sick.

It is always easy to find the negative things in our lives because most of the world lives by the negative things that go on. Have you watched the news lately? 99% of each news program is negative things. Car accidents, deaths, bank robberies, missing children, sexual abuse, fires, gang violence, and the list goes on and on.

It takes practice to give thanks and live in the positive.

Maybe you and your wife need to (if you are not already) pray together each night. My favorite prayer is God Change Me. God help me see. God help give me strength. God walk with me down this bumpy path. God let me feel you are here. God draw me near to You!

We are not promised an easy life but we as Christians are promised God walking with on our journey! He never steps away from us. When we don’t feel Him it isn’t because He left – it is because we walked away from Him!

eric wrote @ December 4, 2011 at 6:21 PM

Sorry to hear about your family being sick. Your house needs seem similar to ours. It may be just me but I feel like the reason my back hurts badly is because of getting angry with God. The didn’t find anything wrong on the x-rays. Maybe the MRI will find something. I thought i was feeling pretty good on Tuesday, but I could not keep my back straight on Wednesday, I had to actually lay down in the lobby area of the doctors office. I am off for a week from work, which stinks cause we need the money for bills.

I also have asthma, had it since 2000, and bills for no medical insurance at that time, so I understand the no insurance.

Things seemed to being going almost smoothly for 5 years before we got married. after we got married its been rough.

it’s seems like ever way I try to move things in the right direction. the negative effect seems double.

Maybe its not so much where it feels like God has left. It seems like he may be there but just stepping aside and observing for some reason.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ December 5, 2011 at 9:58 AM

Have you ever read “Footprints in the Sand”? If not maybe you should read it and if you have maybe you should re-read it as a reminder.

Eric things have never really been smooth for us. We have had our hiccups even when things were going well. Like we are doing so-so right now. Bills are paid. Saved enough to get kids some things for Christmas without having to use a credit card. And then the furnace is having issues. We woke up with no heat in the house, again (happened last year a lot as well). So we had to pay to have someone come out and fix it.

I was thinking about something you wrote a while ago about how you keep on changing your prayers. How you have asked for your brothers (?) healing. And things like that. I think it is important to believe that prayers work but I think it is also important to remember that God already knows the outcome of everything. I am not saying that our prayers don’t matter but could you imagine what this world would be like if God granted every prayer request with a yes?!

We pray about what we want. We at the time think it is a good thing and we at the time of the prayer believe in our hearts it is what should happen. But we don’t see the big picture. What if your brothers illness is here to help others? Maybe someone will come across your brother and learn a valuable life lesson that leads to the healing for others who have that same illness or same issues? (mind you right now I don’t know what his problem is) Or maybe his issues will lead someone to Christ!

I always remind myself about how I didn’t see the big picture when I was pleading with God to just let my divorce be over. If God had allowed my marriage to be over back in 2008 when I was at my wits end with the divorce I would be in a a huge battle with my Ex right now. I would have to fight with him over every small and large medical decision that needs to be made for our son! The braces he currently has on his teeth never would have happened because of two things – he never would have helped pay for them AND he never would have signed the consent form agreeing that he be allowed to have them! Our son’s teeth were so bad he was getting cavities between his teeth because his mouth was so messed up. But because God knew what was best the divorce kept on going and it went until his father had no legal or physical rights to him. Yes he still has visitation but there is no need for me to consult him over decisions – I just have to notify him of the decisions.

I didn’t know what the importance of the divorce going on and on and on was. I had given my Ex everything he wanted and more. Only for him to lose it all and then some! It was important that he didn’t have legal rights but I didn’t know or realize that when going through it.

I thank God for Him not listening to me! I praise Him for it!

We don’t see the big picture – we only see the tiny little piece we are currently on in the big puzzle. Sometimes even though it is hard we have to just sit back and wait for multiply pieces to come together. And there will be many times when the piece we are on and when it is added makes zero sense to us. But one day when we are with Him and we see the whole puzzle put together it will all make sense!

eric wrote @ December 5, 2011 at 12:10 PM

I’ve been praying for my Brothers healing for over 10 years. My Brother wad diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder abut 10 years ago. I can still remember his screams at night for help before a diagnosis was reached and him telling the family he was trying to fight voice saying kill us.

At first I thought maybe spiritual Warfare until he was diagnosed.

He says he hears God voice telling him that he is healed from the voices, but a few days later the voices start up and he Mad a God for the voices not going away. He is on medication, it helps some days other days it doesn’t

Yes I read footprints in the sand have it the front door.

I was diagnosed with asthma about a year after my brother was diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder.

I probably owe about 10,000 in medical debt. Filled out forms for help and no help was given. So I’m still working on that. $5 Medicine that worked well the pulled off the market because of CFC, and replaced with $30 HFA inhalers. Without insurance its about $140+

Were still behind on on bills, So far the electric company has been nice and hasn’t turned us off yet.

Last month we were with out food in the house. Food pantries here only given out bread. Nothing like hearing your wife say when are we going to have some food in the house.

Then when going to other peoples homes and trying not to beg for food or dinner was rough.

I’m not sure if that’s the reason i lost about 40 pounds in the last month or health reasons.

Food is a need or at least i would think so more than a want.

I’m going to be missing a weeks pay due to my back on the 21st check. I may or may not have my job any more do to whats found on the MRI and if the doctor lets me return to work on the 7th.

It would be nice to have the bills caught up again, but that’s not happening.

We finally got some food yesterday, due to me helping someone with a computer problem on Saturday at midnight so they could graduate.

eric wrote @ December 6, 2011 at 1:42 PM

I got the MRI back, no problems. Doctors are no saying it’s my job that is causing the pain, So now I am looking for s way to work without straining my back muscle.

eric wrote @ December 6, 2011 at 4:09 PM

But looking at the positive its something than can be corrected through time and therapy

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ December 8, 2011 at 9:39 PM

Glad it is something that can be corrected with therapy!

eric wrote @ December 11, 2011 at 5:20 PM

Therapy may not be covered now. I just gotten written up at work for attendance due to back problems. I had doctors notes. The are also reducing my hours because of the attendance. Now my hours are being reduced to about 20 a week, and my pay may get cut.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ December 12, 2011 at 12:26 PM

Still praying Eric

eric wrote @ December 12, 2011 at 3:52 PM

Thanks we need a lot of prayers right now. I went to the er today and have some inflammation in the colon, which could be also causing my back pain. The er doctor was saying its diverticulitis, and to get a GI scope done as soon as possible.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ December 16, 2011 at 11:10 AM

Well if that is what you have then you will have to be careful with what you eat. Do your research and it will get better.

eric wrote @ December 29, 2011 at 11:34 AM

Well I had the gi scope done, cause of my pain is a 2 inch ulcer, the medication that i was taking for pain made the ulcer worse, its hard to believe that other doctors missed this. They also did a biopsy and found that pre cancerous changes exists. I’m not exactly sure what that means, except for more testing.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ January 5, 2012 at 3:25 PM

glad you have answers finally! now to get them healed up.

eric wrote @ January 21, 2012 at 12:01 PM

I give up. God is not providing. My wife’s car battery was replaced, and now needs an alternator. Its wet out because of the snow and my car is sliding alot, I just slid in to our garage a minute ago after taking my wife to work, and to further top it off we got a disconnect notice from our electric company and soon to be water bill. We don’t qualify for help make $10 to much. That’s the last thing i need is for my car swerve off to far. I keep praying that it doesn’t, but what else can you do when your still behind on everything?

I dont know why it took the doctors 3 months to figure out what was wrong with me, while I was in severe pain.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ January 23, 2012 at 3:50 PM

Eric,

I have been praying about what to say and it came to me:

Habakkuk 3: 17-18
17 Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
18 yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.

This passage is talking about how they were the chosen people – God choose them and yet all the countries around them were thriving and they had nothing. And yet even with nothing they were able to rejoice over the Lord their God!

God is providing and I am sorry you don’t see it. I am sorry you don’t feel it.

There are times we have to cut back what we spend and how we spend it but He is providing for you! When we had no money to fix the cars we have in the past cut things out. Cell phones, internet, cable and whatever else we had to do.

God provides for us – it might not always be monetary but He does provide!

We have to live within our means and if that means we have to cut things out of our lives to be able to do so that is what we need to do. It isn’t always fun or great or nice and it isn’t always easy. But it is possible.

eric wrote @ January 22, 2012 at 1:07 AM

Things can’t always be bad can they? maybe taxes will help us out who knows.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ January 23, 2012 at 3:52 PM

No things are not always bad. Remember He doesn’t promise we won’t have trials or struggles. He just promises He will walk with us through them. We live in a fallen world. Bad things happen. Financial struggles occur.

I hope you get enough back in taxes to be able to fix your cars – or sell your cars and get new ones.

We currently are reviewing our financial situation and making huge changes. Maybe it is time for your wife and you to sit down and do a financial overhaul as well?

eric wrote @ February 18, 2012 at 1:58 PM

I’ve been driving an UN-driveable car for the last few months, so taxes went to fix that after money we had to borrow yet again from somebody. I was lucky i didn’t crash in to any on while going to work.

I just got denied for 3 more job opportunities.

I am about to lose my Job after the 23rd of this month.

My wife is about to lose hers after 5 years of working at the same place. Someone else that is cheating the company is being rewarded for great customer service.

When my wife loses her job we will not have health insurance, and the cheap health care clinics do not cover her medical condition.

My belief in God is gone. There has been to many times were I have worked my but off to get an interview an then rejected.

Yeve Eeffoc wrote @ February 21, 2012 at 10:24 AM

Eric I am sorry you don’t have a belief in God at this moment in time. Thankfully He still believes in you and loves you!

This life was never promised to be easy. All that was promised to us is that when we have hard times He will be right there with us.

He loves you even though you don’t believe in Him.

I will continue to pray for you!

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